4/19/2026

[thedumbopt_imist]

i was sick today

imma have to study for the sat more tho i think i convinced my parents to not make me study an hour each day

i feel like somethings wrong n that i only like ppl when they do what i want and maybe i cannot tolerate differences of opinion


i played missed messages whole my family was out shopping (i stayed home cuz i was sick)
the character may in that game self harms n in the worst ending she hangs herself n that lowk made me realize that i need to connect w ppl while i can but idk how

i was thinking about how scary dying is n how when you cease idk wut happens

i hope there is an afterlife but if there isnt thats rlly scary esp for people who were murdered and had their lives cut short


ngl its interesting how even though a person dies,
they can still have an impact and live on in memories and slices of themselves seen by others
ik this has been said before but idk

i havent personally lost anyone so i cant really relate to the feeling but i see how bad it is

also for some reason i remembered playing stranger things on a fire stick tv
n also how i bricked a fire stick by trying to install google play store

also i was thinking about how i wanna hug someone and make them feel ok and make me feel ok and if theyre struggling theyll just cry into my arms or maybe i cry into their arms

either way were both connected

Comments

death

[pr1nce_jubiii]

i think this is an interesting personal blog bcuz my opinions on death since i can remember have always been (personally) unafraid. i've just never been scared of dying! i like ur thought abt how death still has an impact, regardless of where the dead person goes. it makes death have a much more significance, morbidly enough. from experience, my dad will always be around, even if not physically. maybe not even spiritually, too!

i hope you get to hug someone! sending u lots of well wishes towards ur sickness!

Re: death

[thedumbopt_imist]

surprised uve never been scared

thx 4 wishing me well!!!!