Wednesday, April 1st, 2026 08:13 pm
 it's interesting how i can be good at something whenever i want to. i just had to want it.
poetry is FUN!
Tuesday, March 31st, 2026 07:15 pm
going through my personal library today. pulling out all of a specific genre. back to roots
also found some untouched ones from bookshop binge buying. they are tinged with guilt.
addiction and oh god, so much poetry....
Sunday, March 29th, 2026 08:07 pm
 i am Going to buyh. ipod.
Sunday, March 29th, 2026 07:29 am
bit of an exaggerated title, but anyway, life is like that. it makes reference to the fact ive recently…fallen out of love with film a bit. not many films i have watched recently have been of my liking due to various reasons, and ig being stuck watching most the oscar nominated films hasn’t given me space to watch films in actually interested in, though luckily im back on track watching stuff i actually like :3 (though i wish i had more time…specially as im currently milking off my parent’s hbo max subscription and there’s plenty of cool stuff there BUT I HAVE THE MOTHERFUCKING TIME LIMIT. i cant even sneak my tablet in to watch stuff at night, like in the good old times…though in the good old times watching films at 3am didnt allow me to fully appreciate them *cough* helter skelter 2012 and mysterious skin *cough* BUT ANYWAY. i want to binge the matrix and blade saga). so here are some reviews, spoilers for:

𝜗ৎ mars express (2023)
𝜗ৎ ms. 45 (1981) (the review will contain mentions of rape, sexual harassment, murder)
𝜗ৎ the secret agent (2025)
𝜗ৎ romeo + juliet (1996) (the review will contain mentions of drugs)
𝜗ৎ proyect hail mary (2026)
𝜗ৎ love is protein (2008) (the review will contain mentions of disturbing events, to put in a way (ᵕ • ᴗ •) )
𝜗ৎ uncut gems (2019)

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Sunday, March 29th, 2026 03:12 am
Once upon a time, in the heart of a town, there was a great forest that allowed all forms of life to exist, and it was disappearing. Little by little, destroyed by the greed, meanness, and selfishness of those it allowed to live. Ironic, isn't it? Those roots that once breathed life into the lungs of humanity so they could burn on their own, now destroyed their own home, their father, their mother, their nest, their roots; killing everything around them without realizing they were also killing themselves. What ingratitude! The same soil in which you were born will be the one that warmly embraces you on the day of your farewell. Or it would embrace you, if you wasn't making it die too. And little by little, those who believed the forest should be preserved were disappearing. They were losing to the stronger ones, but their beliefs did not die. They burned so strongly in the heart of one of them that, indignant at all this injustice, he began to row against the waves. His companions tried to resolve the situation peacefully over decades, which only resulted in more deaths. So, he grew weary, weary of seeing all this happen without deserved punishment. Thus, he became the guardian of the forest. He might have been just one, and only a human, but the flame of hatred in his heart was so intense that it brought down all those who dared to go into the forest to harm it. Years and years passed, and he became even more powerful, even stronger. But something strange was happening: he didn't age. The desire to keep the forest alive was so intense that he surpassed his own human logic. Slowly, he distanced himself from his humanity and transformed into a completely new entity, whose sole purpose was to preserve the forest, as if the forest itself were calling him to become part of it. He became the True Guardian. Then, the forest slowly began to grow again. A miracle, a second chance arose, an opportunity for a fresh start. But the price was high: the Guardian's humanity and mortality. Everyone who passed near the great forest was terrified by him. He only used violence against people with bad intentions, though. But the trauma in his heart was so deep, so intense, that it prevented humanity from seeing the most beautiful things in that town. An infinity of new species to discover, new sounds to hear, new flavors to experience, new aromas to inhale; all this was hidden under the Guardian's gaze, for the safety of the forest. But despite everything he was doing, the Guardian was seen as a monster, frightening those who wished to explore the great forest, which was now almost a legend, since decades had passed and those who actually once had the chance to see it, was just a little amount of people. The Guardian was perceived as evil, mysterious, and terrifying, while he spent his entire life in the forest, protecting humanity, even if they didn't know that he was the one keeping them alive. It would be very easy for the Guardian to succumb to the dark side. He had become immensely powerful over all those decades, and if he listened to his inner demons for even a moment, the end of much of humanity would be certain. But he stood firm, kept his purpose in mind. It didn't matter if no one cared about what he felt or what his desires were before becoming an entity, he would remain steadfast in his purpose. While others reveled in the light, he protected them in the shadows, and so it will be for all eternity. That is destiny, the burden of being the chosen one.
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Tuesday, March 24th, 2026 10:37 pm
 light half mile walked
good work ethic beginning to bear fruit..... ew....
I submitted some of my photography to a school ran magazine. I wonder if they will publish it.
I felt pretty good about the ACT. Being able to read quickly helps. I am expecting a forty, test graders.
Not a lot left for me to ask for from my god. I made praying a habit, I;m reading three books at once.
god to ME is something i do not think i could explain to anyone. however that personal theology lesson is for another day,
in the form of an alejandrino in the style of neruda. 
Three dogs sleep in my bed. I am a poet.. I wish we took the writing section,
pulled mr chariot. HI chariot. you return to me after being lost.
feeling self efficacy is REALLY VERY WEIRD when you are known to be terribly hard on yourself. I see a future.
It's like wearing dress shoes for the first time. You know.. Feels like me. Feels like carrying a large paperback in
a blazer pocket. Like throwing mealworms, pointing cameras at things, putting pen to paper...... brown ink.
Monday, March 23rd, 2026 08:49 pm
 Things are off. Typically I would be beating myself up and being so so very hard on myself over this test. However I know I have worked hard and there are opportunities to do better, so I am not too worried.
I've had no time for anything but my studies and this is the first time in a bit I'm letting myself rest. I need to savor this.
I'm excited..... I'm so weird. Excited to take a four hour exam. 

I need to work on some poetry and ohotogprahy.
Monday, March 23rd, 2026 06:08 am
belt to ass girlies
Sunday, March 22nd, 2026 03:08 am
ew/ i'm long winded today. so much writing + editing + analasye 
 i;m going to be the most HONORABLE little knight you;ve ever fucking seen.