more random thoughts + 4/24/2026 pt. ii

[thedumbopt_imist]

ngl i think one of the reasons why i feel bad when i see a pretty alt girl is cuz i think they give me gender envy n i feel kinda sad n i wish i was them or was friends w them or sum n that i could express myself like that

those girls r generally rlly cool n i wish i was as cool as them
ig it makes me dysphoric or sum or makes me take notice of it more

unrelated but i hate the way my brain defaults to defend men when it comes to issues cuz whenever something negative is said abt men it triggers my brain

also i feel like if i was a girl i couldve been cool like those girls (i prolly wouldnt) but they way theyre all chill w each other it makes me think im missing out n lik im out of the place where im supposed to be

oh yeh my day was alr, im pretty sure i have like $10+ of profit

1st period we practiced the mario song we were working on playing
2nd period was compsci n i got n A on a test n that was apparently the highest grade in the period
3rd period was bio n the last day of testing
4th period was math n i like slept a bit after we did the assignments n i did the homework cuz i was rlly tired n i drooled on the table (dw i wiped it up)