4/23/2026 (pt. ii)

[thedumbopt_imist]

i made back my money n them some (like 10 bucks i think)

highkey the candy barely sold which lowk pmo
1st period ppl were setting up the electric guitars which was cool n we got more pages of sheet music for this one song which is lowk difficult
2nd period was compsci n i lowk got a 69% on some assignment i think
3rd period was bio n we had more testing
4th period was math n were doing statistics

(we already did it sophomore year but apparently were doing it again this school year, were gonna be the last grade to do stats sophomore year.my.teacher said)

at home i studied a bit for the sat

idk why i called them periods, they used that term at my middle school ☠️

i wish i could know a person fully n i knew a person who i could ask (almost) anything
like nothings too personal n were js extremely close but we respect each others boundaries obvs
like theyd js tell me everything n id tell them everything
if i had someone like that i prolly wouldnt post here as much n like no one reads this anyway
this blog really shouldnt exist

thank you for reading this btw

like i js wanna share my secrets w someone (except the really bad ones)
n me n that person would have a whole world of experiences and stories that only we know about 

one time i complained about being single on my notes like a chud n an acquaintance dmed me about it n i was afraid of interacting w him after that but highkey it was never mentioned irl



oh yeh my freshman friend group highk fractured n i js remembered that
i wish i still had a friend group lowk


also i realized im afraid of dying cuz of wut happens afterward n the afterlife even though i dont rlly value my.life TOO much if that makes sense

trigger warning: mention of self harm

i used to cut so i felt like i was rlly suffering tbh i may have been edgy for that
i wish i could see the scars still more so i could always remember that i used to
 

oh yeh also i used to be in sped when i was younger (i was rlly hyperactive n couldnt sit down n i was blunt)the main point is that i want something to be wrong cuz itd give me closure that there was something different about me n that this was isnt js normal n how its supposed to be

n also maybe i can take meds to fix me and be normal
also if this is just how normal ppl feel then why do i feel like shit a lot of the time n why cant i connect well

maybe im js a loser then

n i hope if that was true id js accept it
or maybe im js socially cucked cuz of my family

also i just remembered i was accused of stealing a PLASTIC spoon by this one random girl when i was in elementary school
why would i even steal her plastic spoon </3
also reminds me of how in maybe it was 3rd-5th grade idfk
my teacher put blue tape in a square n forced me to sit in the square

i should prolly make an intro icl

also btw i do overshare (cuz idk wut ppl know abt me) but i dont share my worst on here