rambling 4/21/2027

[thedumbopt_imist]

i rlly think i should go to therapy lowk i think i may have issues n i need to talk w someone i need someone who im rlly close w n who them n i could date n i could feel safe w them n i know being close w them wouldnt be an issue to js hug me close n tell me that they love me n care about me n idgaf if they love me romantically or platonically cuz it wouldnt matter w them n if we kissed it would be alright even if we could only do it in secret

i just need someone to be vulnerable w and to tell my secrets to irl ig logically i need a bf/gf
id wanna cuddle n smell their hair n body n wed share warmth n id wanna hold them at their worst n make them feel ok and alright

i wanna be what my partner needs but i may never have one as the person i am rn cuz i feel like i have flaws that im not rlly thinking about

i would be faithful tho obvs
i want to give them all my love
just at all times
because i need to put it somewhere and my affection n need to express it is getting worse so if i dont js hold someone n sleep in their arms i may just become overly sentimental (i already am but like it may actually be like a bad thing atp)

i rlly want someone to love

so i can just dm them dumb love stuff and tell them dumb mundane things
and wear their clothes and be their gf

idgaf if its a sapphic relationship or achillean (tbh id prefer to be seen as a girl whos a guy somehow in relation to being w a dude so its kinda gay but straight ig idfk)