4/21/2026

[thedumbopt_imist]

i wish i had more friends who dressed cool n were unique n stuff cuz i wanna lowk talk to them about their style or maybe its js me wanting a new experience
maybe i wanna live vicariously through them ig

i dont think i like me
also i wish i had an app i could ask for advice w life or something like a situation calculator

if i did have one itd be amazing

school was alr, i think i needa prioritize the connections i alr have

i miss my fidget spinner idk where it is, it helped distract me n stuff n calm me
i wish i wasnt so anxious

i wanna hug someone whose pretty n maybe ill feel pretty that way

maybe theyll dress me up in stuff n ill look dumb

i think i yearn for connection but idk how to like do it (esp irl)

i feel like everyone dresses so cool (the alt ppl at my school i mean) n i wish i was as cool as them
i prolly idealize them but i do wish i was a pretty girl w friends who were also girls n we did cool fun stuff together but im not that

im so awkward its depressing it prolly makes ppl the mosr uncomfy i wish i could get over it i wish i had a bff irl n stuff


oh yeah back to school tho it was fine i made some sales w the snacks (im gonna buy more tmmrw)

guitar was alr, im getting better w the parts
compsci were doing khan academy stuff
bio were doing english testing n were gonna have to write an essay </3 math we were able to do test review but i got a 95% (ToT) ngl i dont think i woud fit into an alt subculture ig logically i could be scene cuz thatd not rlly abt the music looking it up apparently grunge IS a subculture? lowk i needs listen to some more twee