4/8/2026 (n 4/7/2026)

[thedumbopt_imist]

highkey needa write a blog post rn

ok so today was alr
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yesterday was shit tho let me elaborate

so ive had this problem since sophomore year (10th grade) n i thought it went away but it came back and i felt so disappointed in myself and i hate it so much

i talked w a hotline n they helped me come up w some solutions to manage it so it may be alr
ill try remembering to spin my fidget spinner too to distract myself
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today i went to target n spent like 22 dollars on snacks to sell
i hitched a ride w someone but the experience lowk pmo

so the dude i was riding w (lets call him josh) (is also a student too btw)
picked up his friend (lets call him carl)from albertsons who bought a whole rotisserie chicken n didnt have the money to pay for it
so josh paid w a gift card n picked up carl n Carl started eating his rotisserie chicken n some sandwiches he also bought

josh also started eating the rotisserie too n carl was lowk making a mess which lowk worried me cuz my backpack was w carl

josh reached back at me w his nasty fucking chicken hands n was like jokingly trying to touch me (which pmtfo)

n he also touched one of the arizonas i was gonna sell so i lowk js let him have it because i dont wanna sell someone shit baptised with fucking chicken juice
ok so he also got a bit of his chicken mess in my target bag which also pmo but he said he thought it was a trash bag
(also btw 3 ppl owe me money (js wanted to say this; u know who u are))

so after that whole ordeal i got to the music classroom n somehow the door JUST opened as soon as i got to school (usually it opens earlier)

but yeh my teacher noticed the snacks n everything n asked if i was selling (the teachers dont gaf even though its against school rules)

i asked him if he had clorox wipes so i could wipe down some stuff, there weren't any but there were microfibre (spelling it this way bcuz of someone lowk, u know who u are!!!) cloths
so i sprayed one n used it to wipe down everything

i also asked him if he had a bag which he did so i used that

guitar was nice we listened to some music n we played the song green hill zone n i got to play rhythm (which is what im better at)

compsci i did fuckall but i should rlly lock in on my project NGL

we had an assembly for some state testing were gonna

after that we had biology which was alr

math we didn't have our teacher there which pmo cuz i need help w stuff n its easier to ask him


also im rally realizing i need community n i should stop scrolling insta n twitter n tiktok n try interacting w ppl on my other socials

i rlly need to lock in on that

also i should voice train n lowk work on my site and learn to love myself cuz it seems me not loving myself is causing me a lot of issues

srsly the way i dislike myself is lowk ruining me